Personal trials of my life n Good times

So, lately I've been feelin like I've been feelin selfish due to what I try to stive for. I know to some it dont make sense, but to me tho, its serious. Lately, whenever I plan to do somethin n it turns to a failure, I tend to beat myself bout it. Half the time whenever i try my best to do something and i fail, i practically feel useless. Sure it hurts at times, but in the end, i know i'm not gonna be relied on too much. And i feel its a good thing too. Then of course the moments of havin to deal with choosin between friends, kinda bugs me in the worst of ways. I dont like those decisions. It hurts my heart the most. I'd rather avoid that kind of situation. The worst of my situations are sometimes based on what i say that sets someone off and i dont try to. Half the time I'm not usually informed of certain things that set people off. Thats why i try to know people better, so i can avoid that kind of situation. I wrote this post not because to guilt people or ask for sympathy, i did it because i felt people should know what i feel half the time. I hope this post doesnt cause anyone to be upset with me. Like i said, i felt everyone should know about my feelings. For all my friends seein this post, I'm glad you always been there for me. Whether or not i asked for it, I got your support. So I want to keep bein there for you all, just as y'all have been for me.

Your friend who tries his best for all,

Dedrick

PS: You guys really do mean alot to me. I managed to learn alot from you guys. So, thanks for havin my back.